Much love and hugs to you both.It means so much to me to know you care.

Last night after using the bathroom and brushing my teeth.I had my cane in my right hand and took two baby steps to reach the door.My leg gave out and bam I fell.I hit a wood magazine holder and a basket of dirty clothes.That kept me from hitting the floor.Luckily I could get up pushing down on the dirty clothes and pulling on the door.Scared me so much my heart was pounding.My behind is sore and hurting on the side that hit the holder and my left ankle with the metal in it is hurting.

I am talking to my doctor's office later.I'm sure an x-ray of my lower spine will finally be done.I have been using a wheelchair the past few days.Usually I can take a couple of steps before I have to sit down.

I am miserable but trying not to worry everyone.You'd think with all the trauma I have had in my lifetime that I'd be allowed to rest a bit before leaving this life.I have prayed and prayed then prayed some more.I am ready to give up.

I should be thankful the the lower lumbar area of my spine is all that is affected.I am...but it is a very difficult adjustment.Knowing my husband is gone and with no kids I suppose my independent days are over.I will eventually accept it but right now I am upset and hurting.

Again thank you.