To be honest, I'm trying extremely hard to accept the fact that I will continue going through life without Bill.....and,in order to heal my heart and mind, I have to look for ways to move forward...to be accepting. It's very slow...but, a work in progress. I might not like it, but this is now my life....and I'm grateful for each day I have left...... blessings still remaain. Great question, Lucie.