You seem to have alot of pride about CRNAs providing sole anesthesia services. My question to you: why didnt you just go for medical school and become an anesthesiologist?
Any answer you say will fall into 3 categories: 1. FEAR, the competition of med school was too great for you to handle. 2. MONEY-HUNGRY, you got into CRNA because it was the shorter route with good pay. 3. LACK OF INTELLIGIENCE, you just can't make the cut.
I actually see all three of these traits in every post that you make. Don't be mad at AAs or MDAs for your shortcomings. Blame your parents, they're the ones that created this piece of work.