I think also though, it doesn't look like anything I imagined.
I always pictured an incarnation of it where I'd be in a committed monogamous relationship with spankings.
It's not that I actually thought this would happen, it's just thay that was my in-head image of what it would look like if it could.
And it's not even that that's what I definitely understood as something I wanted. It was just the only picture I know how to conjure up with my experiences and knowledge at the time, since I didn't really have a v strong concept of casual play, and monogamous relationships are pitched as the norm, default, and often only real option by the societal mainstream of the world most of us live in and grew up in.
Anyway I'm glad you enjoyed my story and writing! I also saw your comments on my blog.
It really was quite scary! 😂🙈😅
I seem to often tread this funny like between "real" and "role play" where it's not quite either.
I have seen Dr Morrow (ie who I wrote about) describe "realistic discipline" as something she enjoys engaging in.
I'm not sure exactly how she would go on to write a definition of that herself but I like the term and as far as I understand it, it was something very much like in my story.
We weren't really role-playing as such, as we really did steal the birches and we really didn't have permission and we really didn't specifically negotiate in the form of eg "is it OK if we steal your birches?" or anything like that. It was spontaneous and in a way "real" naughtiness.
But also, we engaged with the full knowledge that she would understand we wouldn't have actually destroyed them or anything and would of course be giving them back. And also we knew she'd understand we were effectively trying to get in trouble.
She responded knowing this and knowing we were *into* being scolded and spanked. So though it was "real" it was never *real* as there is always a certain element of suspended disbelief.
There's no true belief she's going to permanently teach us a lesson or hold us accountable in a way that will stick after this interaction. We know she's not being really serious even when she acts seriously, even if it feels scary in the moment...
It's not a scene that could happen if we didn't all know each other to be into spanking/discipline in this way.
So it's not quite real real. But it is *realistic* and it feels real in the moment. And the emotions can be real, and the pain is real...
It's morning and ill stop rambling now. I've been doing a lot of thought working out recently
.. Sorry if this is a bit confusing
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