And denial! That was my middle name during recovery from bilateral mastectomy and chemo. I went back to work during chemo so I could feel "normal". I felt like if I stayed home I was going to die but if I was working I wasn't. I can't explain why I felt that way but the psyche of getting a cancer diagnosis is surreal and we all have our own way of dealing with it.
Please come back and discuss how you are doing and how you are feeling. This site saved my life emotionally in my darkest moments. There is a lot of support here from our pink sisters.