I am Robert and I suffered from my AP a long time ago. First time, after a half-year hesitation I applied for a beginner workshop. In 2007 it boosted my confidence, I recognised my condition and I started to practice, I visited public toilets regularly. I applied the next follow-up workshop and it helped me a lot. But I thought my recovery was a kind of race, I felt I had to show I did not have problem with toilets, I had to prove I was able to pee everywhere. I was to pride and after some bad experiences I started to avoid toilets again.
In 2012 I visited another workshop, which was fantastic, a lot of very great people with the same feelings, problems. I really enjoyed the supportive environment, and during the workshop I peed at urinals with my mates surrounding with strangers. I got closer to receive my condition and arriving home I made new plans and new habits. As my anxiety level dropped I started to really enjoy my life. I visited social events and even I travelled to abroad with my friends. But after half year of practising as a “good avoider” I stopped my practising…
So, I decided to come again. In London the mood was very good. I met great people, who understood my condition and we did not have to play roles. All the weekend we talked a lot openly, and I learnt new ideas about my condition. I realised my main problem is to receive my condition. Now I am closer to myself and I do not think to my recovery as a race. During the workshop we practised, laughed a lot, and I was able to achieve my aim. I was happy to be there.
After arriving home, I started again my practice sessions. And I know my success is to go to practise, peeing is just a consequent. I am on my way again toward my recovery, which could be a long way, but I am going on. Nowadays I am planning my summer holiday.
Thank You Andrew, you were very-very supportive and used your great humour to help me to laugh at myself and my condition which reduced my fears. And thank you my mates for sharing your life and your solutions. It is very difficult to tell you how I feel…
So my mate, who read my words with fears do not suffer alone and do not hesitate, just apply to a workshop and start your new life! Believe me!
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