I understand. For a long time after Abby passed I kept 2nd guessing myself, if there was something I could have and should have done differently, beating myself up. But there is only so much you can do.

And here it is almost 2 years since Abby passed, and I can still get teary-eyed sometimes when I think about her, or try to tell someone about her, which actually happens fairly often at the cat shelter, with people coming in after their cats have passed, etc. Hang in there.