Tim,
In 2015 I was diagnosed with a life-threatening disease, I stayed in the hospital for 5 months and one night I came very close to saying goodbye to life; the doctors said that I probably would not survive the night. I was calm and would have accepted whatever the choice was for me. The next morning I took off the oxygen mask by myself and the doctors could not believe what they saw. I went through many difficult moments, tests, operations, check-ups and finally physiotherapy. Maybe because I had decided not to give up or maybe because fate had decided otherwise, but I am still here.
Hold on, do not give up.
I pray for you.
Maurizio