I’d first like to figure out what I’m feeling and going through right now, sort out my current relationship first, and only then go and sort out the family tree. It suddenly hit me that maybe I don’t love the person I’m with at all, and it was just infatuation. I even found a limerence test, but I’m a bit scared to take it, to be honest. It’s scary to find out that I was just charmed by the person and not actually in love with them.