I miss the good old days when I would get butterflies from reading a spanking story or watching a spanking video. Now, I barely think about spanking anymore! The videos bore me, and so does most stories. I had all these plans for writing spanking stories, but my mojo is gone. It’s like I’m in the spanko version of a sex drought!

I feel like my excitement around spanking has gone down a bit since I turned 30 and since I started working a job where I had to take on a leader role. I have so much responsibility. I am constantly thinking about others and how I can help them improve, and that is very different for me. I used to constantly be able to fantasize about others caring for me and helping me improve. Now I have that role (but in a totally vanilla setting obviously).

Or maybe it’s that I’m much more busy now than I used to be. That I simply don’t have the time anymore?

Or is it that I’ve been spanked so much in real life now that the mysticism is gone?!

I don’t know what to do. 😕 I feel like the guy in that awkward movie scene, sitting at the edge of the bed saying, “This has never happened before.” But… it has. Several times.

Anyone ever feel like this?