Posted by Gman
Link: http://wwe.com
on 9/20/2003, 10:39 pm
205.188.208.169
This is for Ms. M. Jones. I'm deeply sorry and would like to apologize to you for treating you the way I did during our brief summer relationship. I was an immature fool for acting the way I did. I also owe you an apology for the terrible things I said. It's been about 9 years since we last spoke or saw one another. But you're memory is still haunting me. I never thought I could still love someone after so much time had passed. It didn't take me more than a couple years to get over my first love. But everyday you cross my mind. I never married and do not have any children but I did see you had a brief marriage. I'm sorry that it didn't work out. I know I don't deserve a second chance but I pray that somehow you can forgive me. I miss your friendship and the way your eyes would look into my soul. Since we stopped seeing one another I have only dated 1 other woman for about 3 months. I've had plenty of other offers but there's just no replacing you and I would rather lead a life of solitude if I can't be with the one I love. There is no other for me, my mind tortures me daily, to know that I willingly threw aside our relationship. What a fool I was. You are the most beautiful woman I have ever known. You are also the most intelligent and logical woman I have ever met. I long for the breezy summer afternoons holding hands sitting on the porch and talking about what our goals were, what we saw into our futures, and the journey that would get us there. I miss going to the lake with you and holding you in my arms. I also miss the taste of your lips and the touch of your fingertips. As the song says, "You're painted on my heart, etched upon my soul." I can't seem to move past this. I don't really expect you to get this but I'm trying to take small steps to build up the courage to stop by your house and formally apologize. I'm also in the midst furthering my education to the graduate level and have started on the path of rehabilitating my body after years of neglect and abuse. I've been in a horrid tailspin since the day you left my side. I finally decided to pull myself out of the muck that I was drowning in to be in some sort of condition on the slim chance that we do run across one another. I'm hoping by the summer of '04 I'll be prepared. The timing may not be right at the moment but the hope that someday our paths will cross again gives me enough reason to wake in the morning with a smile and a glimmer of hope. God bless you and yours. I wish you all the best in your endeavors and that someday you will find whatever it is you are looking for whether that be me or not. I just ask and pray that you can find the way to please forgive me for my past transgressions your old friend,G.
P.S. Beavis and Butthead Rule!
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