I was wondering if anyone here is dealing with the type of mental issues that I have been experiencing. For one, I have become phobic about going to the doctor. Funny enough, not my onc, but my internist, who is new as my other guy retired. I had a physical with blood work and an EKG. The EKG came back slightly abnormal, which he didn't seem concerned about when I was in the office, but now he wants me to have an echocardiogram. My mind immediately goes to a dark place. I am a healthy weight (slender, even) and I work out every day, so this is scaring the hell out of me. Also, I get this recurring burning sensation between my shoulder blades and I'm wondering if it could be a residual effect from the radiation...even three years later? Anyone else experiencing this? Or the doctor phobia? I am disappointed in myself for being like this yet I don't know how to shake it. And I am at the age where medical tests are more common and frequent. I just don't know how to handle this as I've already gotten myself worked up over the echo. As always, your suggestions/comments are greatly appreciated.