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Posted by Lori on October 18, 2017, 11:04 pm
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I actually prefer live people to the somewhat artificial environment of on line support.......yes, I am "old" so I am told. This forum is not a comfortable venue for me......but here goes...... Shit got real......again.....returned 1 month post completion of radiation for follow up visit to discuss hormone therapy, and some alternatives. I literally had a melt down as I entered the MD office-----I had insisted on a 1 month hiatus to reclaim my personhood following treatment . Totally took me by surprise. Apparently denial became my intimate friend in that month. wasn't expecting that response......and now am very aware that this will apparently NEVER go away.......This new world of medications, side effect management and constant surveillance makes it downright difficult to move forward.....how do some of you longer term survivors develop a perspective that is not all consuming???? I feel like I am fighting a war-----I'll be damned if breast CA will get me this go round......but I'm having a hell of a time out maneuvering it and reclaiming my life!!! Any suggestions?
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