Stupid Fear
Posted by Carolyn R. on December 15, 2016, 11:27 pm
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Hello fellow warriors, I have been a coward. I have slacked off on my extemethasane and my cancer clinic follow up. I have an appointment in January and promise to go. I haven't seen an oncologist in 6 months. I was diagnosed as Stage 1, Grade 2, Triple positive in 2012. I had a total mastectomy and chemo. I was doing well as far as the obsessing and fear goes until the past few weeks. Something switched in me and I am scared again. I had a lot of fear in the first year and then improved. The fear is back and hence I have returned to the place of support that got me through it all - here. I feel ashamed, stupid, and like it will be my own damn fault if the cancer returns. Has anyone experienced a period of denial followed by fear? I have been through a lot in the past year. My partner of 9 years left me. I am having a tough time and know I need to get back on track. Carolyn R.
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