I just now saw your post as I was out of town at a breast cancer retreat this weekend. First, let me say welcome to this group. We will all support you in every way we can. Secondly, I am so very sorry for all the struggles you are dealing with. I was the caregiver for my mom many years ago, and that is definitely a full time job, and when she neared end of life, I was devastated even though she had been sick for a very long time. So I can understand how painful this must be for you, especially during this time. I'm now 62 and have been a breast cancer survivor for 6 years. Having gone through 15 months of treatment, I can tell you that there is definitely life on the other side of cancer. Sometimes we hear the word "cancer" and imagine the worst when the truth is that many thousands of women who are diagnosed most often survive and go one to live healthy, productive lives. Will you need chemo and/or radiation? Also, if you like, you can contact the American Cancer Society and have a cancer coach through their Reach-to-Recovery program. You would be matched up with a woman who is also a survivor and has finished treatment. Her "job" is to guide you through this process. I had a coach during my treatment (from a local cancer organization), and I she was fabulous. It was such a tremendous help for me to know I could call her whenever I needed to talk, and she always listened and was supportive. We developed a deep friendship, and I still have lunch with her once a week. Also, some local cancer agencies sometimes host support groups, and these can also be very valuable in connecting with others in person so you know you're not alone, and also in helping you to develop a sense of belonging and support as you move through treatment. Please post again soon to let us know how you're doing. In the meantime, I will pray for you, for strength and comfort.
Hugs & prayers,