Cheryl is right. Initially I KNEW I was going to die! And here I am 4 years later and now I KNOW I am going to live! I have to admit though that my journey was different from Cheryl's. I wanted to talk about it with anyone that would listen to me because the more I talked about it, the more real it became for me. I wasn't looking for sympathy. I was just making it real so I could deal with it. I did NOT want anyone to tell me about their sister, cousin, aunt, mother, father, brother,etc..getting cancer and dying. That was simply NOT allowed. I would stop them mid sentence and say "is this a happy story or a sad story?" If it was sad I would tell them I did not want to hear it and walked away.
I am ashamed to say that I don't post on this site anymore like I should. I am forever grateful to all our unbelievable sisters on this site. Without their guidance and support I never would have had the courage to move forward in my journey.
Now that I am officially retired though I do intend on stopping by more often to provide whatever support is needed.
To all you newbies out there.....it IS a rough road and you will have very dark days but hold our hands and we will lead the way for you as we have been lead by all the wonderful ladies on this site. Hang in there. It does go by pretty fast.