I really think I was in denial the entire time. Not sure I ever really dealt with it. I just had surgery, chemo, and radiation and moved on. The first year after I was finished with treatments, I felt very afraid that the BC would return. Odd, since I hadn't really been afraid during diagnosis or treatment. I finally moved passed that, but it does take awhile. We'll never quite be the same person. Certainly relieved that treatment is finished, though.