Hi Heather, Welcome to the club no one wants to join, but we are glad you found us. This is a great place to rant or rave. You will find no judgment here, only support. I was in your shoes in January of 2014. Be sure you are comfortable with your team of doctors. Once you get more information and you and your team form a plan, you will feel better in your head. My oncologist was stern with me only one time when she looked me in the eyes and said "Stay off the internet." Everybody's cancer is different, and the internet can easily lead you down a rabbit hole.
Good luck. We are here for you.