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Posted by Carol7403 on November 1, 2009, 11:45 pm
I have surgery next week, and the pre-op stuff tomorrow. It's for the exchange for my bilateral recon. Out with the expanders and in with the implants. I've got to be honest with all of you-I'm dreading all of it. This is my fifth breast cancer surgery in the last two years, and I'm dreading everything about it, from the leaving for the pre-op appointment to the coming home from the surgery-the whole thing just gives me the creeps. Another trip to cancer land. The thought that this is the last surgery is no comfort at all right now, and I know that it's an easy surgery too-maybe I'll be able to be happy about that next week when it's over. Right now I just feel like a little kid being dragged to the dentist. I'm just feeling scared and down. My stomach starts churning and I'm weepy. How am I going to get through a week of getting ready for surgery while I feel like this?? I have to go to work,and get things at home and work ready for me being out of commission for a little while. I've had three months with no onc or surgery appointments at all, and it's really been a treat. Now I've got this surgery, some other recon details to take care of, and another onc checkup looming in the near future. The break from cancer land was just too short.
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