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Posted by Ruth on September 22, 2009, 11:33 pm, in reply to "Sorry to be self-indulgent"
Hi I totally agree with Jan. I also walk the Alanon walk. There I learned that I was powerless over people, places and things and other peoples actions and that my life had become unmanageable. Once I started on that walk doing the things that I needed to do do to take care of myself. I just recently almost was so overwhelmed by everything I was having to do until my trip to my daughters is North Carolina for her wedding that the other end of the world had to survive with me not here. Wow and they survived. I am usually the one in our situation that puts these burdens on me because my sick thinking kicks in and takes care of everyone and everything only to make myself get messed up again. Thank Goodness that I have certain lines and tools to counteract these thoughts. I ask God to restore me to sanity almost every day so that I can do what I need to do and that is to take care of me. My sweet lady I understand exactly where you are and how you feel and I am here to tell you you have done a great job. Now it is your turn. I think that the list Jan has is a terrific idea. I enjoy kicking leaves around because I can kick them as hard as I want and say anything to them and they probably just think I hope she feels better tomorrow.LOL Stress is one of our number one offenders. Remember what stressed is backwards "desserts" so go have some.You are a very strong person. I know that sometimes having to take care of things keeps our minds occupied but when I have overdone it I become resentful then I know that I need to take the "Me time" and there is nothing wrong with that at all. You are doing exactly what you need to do vent vent vent because if you don't I guarentee you you may blow up. That I know from experience. That is why I continue the program walk. Good Luck to you and I know that you will be okay. I didn't want to say fine because my definition of fine is with the first letters meaning F=frustrated -I=insecure -N=Neurotic -E=Emotional. so when I hear someone say they are fine I kinda of chuckle inside and wonder hmmmm.LOL Thank goodness we have this site to vent on. You keep on a keeping on my friend. 
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