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Posted by Eddy Ok on August 29, 2009, 2:12 pm
I was hoping someone here could provide me with a unique perspective or some decent advice.
My girlfriend of two years and I both smoke. In the world of smoking, I'm like a high-ranking mayor--I'm thinking about it constantly and am eternally interested in the subject. I always knew it would be trouble if I were to be in a relationship with a non-smoker, and now my girlfriend has made the decision to quit based on a career shift to a medical assistant.
This decision has instantly decreased not only my emotional/sexual desire for her, but it has put us on two very different planes in life. Most non-smokers and even smokers would tell me to grow up--to realize that love, caring, trust, and respect are most important, and to ditch my pointless and selfish love of smoking. Ditch a fetish. I feel like abandoning my sexuality would be nothing less than abandoning myself--does this make sense to any of you?
Again, can anyone of you weigh in with an opinion here? She has always known about my fetish, and I told her from the start that I would support her decision to quit in the face of negative health developments or 'down the road' when the time was right. Who knew her 'time' would come so soon? I'm 30 and she's 27--I'm not at the point in my life where I'm ready to sit on the rocking chair and recount the days when my wife and I used to smoke. I can tell you all that I don't believe she ever really understood what the word fetish means, but instead accepted the idea that it was a kink and, without disdain, gave it no more thought than that.
Thanks for listening!
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