[ Post a Response | The Sublime Desire of Cigarette Smoking ]
Posted by buster mcque
on April 9, 2009, 2:33 am, in reply to "Re: Odd thought before sleeping"
Pardon me for eavesdropping on this conversation but as some one new to the board, I thought I'd respond since there are some points made in all these reponses that I can really relate to.
I tried smoking, out of curiosity, when I was 13 but it didn't make much of an impression on me and so I didn't think about smoking again until after I finished high school. For whatever reason I had a real impulse to smoke which I basically ignored until I was in my second year of college. Then, since I was thinking about smoking a lot, I thought I'd better make a decison about it and move on one way or another. So I read everything I could about the effects of smoking on the body since I wanted to make sure I knew what I was getting myself into (and maybe scare some sense into me). After all that effort, I concluded that I wanted to be a smoker and I went out and bought a package of cigarettes and started smoking!It was a decision I still find odd after all these years since I am about as risk averse as a person can get. But in the case of smoking, it was like it was in another category. I had no illusions about what the effects on my health would be, it just seemed to be acceptable. But as I smoked, one of things I came to love about it was related to the smoke beng inside me and then exhaling it. It was an intimate experience. There was also something about having the tar, etc., transported throughout the body that made it exciting, a sort of metamorphisis. It is a difficult feeling to describe.
I was never an everyday smoker and I stopped altogether after about a year or so. But even after 20 years the desire is still there and I still recall the enjoyment I had.
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