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Posted by Lynne on March 29, 2009, 9:56 pm, in reply to "Re: First visit"
Hi vesperae, sorry for the delay in replying, its been a really busy week with college course work.
I have to admit that starting to inhale did cause me problems, I was okay with tiny inhales but had the coughing problem with anything approaching a normal one. I knew that I had to persist if I wanted to become a smoker. I suppose that the big breakthrough came when a friend gave me a marlboro light, the sensation of inhaling was so different, and nicer, to the menthols I had been smoking and it gave me the encouragement to continue. Then I got the full impact of the nicotine, got dizzy a few times until I got used to it and since then I have enjoyed smoking.
I was already a smoker when I started to go out with my bf. I had been warned by one of my friends that his mum was the "wicked witch of the west" and it was 2 months before I met his mum (his dad was a constant golf player, just to get away from her). I got the inquisition, which school do you go to? - the local comprehensive (my bf was at a private school), so after 5 minutes or so she had decided that I was unsuitable. The real disapproval and the decision that I was a bad influence over her son came when I asked if she minded if I smoked? The look of total disapproval on her face just made me determined to be myself. So every time I was at the house I made sure that I kissed my bf at every opportunity, always sat next to him so I could snuggle up and smoked (I always asked before lighting up). Until I had met his mum I did not think of myself as a bad influence, I didnt drink, take drugs or do anything that caused offence. The only "bad" habit I had was smoking. Whilst it was fun, I always felt a bit guilty about winding her up especially as we now get along really well.
Hope this gives you some ideas about my very light Dark side happened. Lynne
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