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Posted by M G F on May 1, 2008, 12:36 pm, in reply to "Re: Identity"
To answer your original question: Certainly. I can relate to your getting pleasure from the knowledge that you are a smoker. I think that all smokers derive some pleasure from that knowledge to some extent.
It seems to me that a large part of your enjoyment of smoking and being a smoker probably stems from the radical change in your life that it represents. You were already very aware of your body and health; now you are aware of it from a somewhat different perspective. You can now relate to the smoking women you find so attractive in a profoundly different way because now you know what they are experiencing when they smoke.
As a closet smoker, are you also enjoying the private nature of your identity as a smoker, that you now identify yourself as a smoker, but others do not? If people were to learn that you smoke, do what effect do you think it would have on your enjoyment of smoking? Remember, even for us unashamed public smokers, smoking is still an intensely personal activity made no less sensual and erotic by other's knowledge of it.
I see that I failed to reply to your reply to my earlier post and will correct that in a moment.
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