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Posted by satisfied_smoker on February 16, 2007, 10:12 am, in reply to "Re: Welcome! (Article Link Enclosed)" No, my wife doesn't smoke, which is unfortunate for my fetish, but fortunate for her health. She'll have an occasional cigarette because she knows I find it sexy, but she doesn't quite know the extent to which I find it sexy. She does want me to quit and I try to from time to time. When my smoke fetish was growing when I was young I fantasized about "really" smoking and doing harm to my body from it. I imagined what it would be like to really know that I've smoked for a long time and actually know that years of damage have really been done to me. That's all true now and I find it exciting to look back at a time when I wished for that to be the case. I no longer have to imagine and pretend it's happening to me. It really is. I suppose I'd choose to see the scan of my lungs. There are many times when the fetish is subdued throughout my day to day life when I don't think about it, but when the fetish gets stimulated, I'd love to have the knowledge of what's really happening to me to give me a rush of excitement. I know what smoking's doing to me, so I doubt it would be a shock, but that knowledge would be very exciting to me at times when I want to know it. As far as the article goes, I think it's incredibly sexy when teen girls start to smoke and I thrive upon any indication that they're doing so (I once heard teen girls on an airplane to Germany actually starting smoking - they were excitedly discussing it with each other - this was in the 80s when smoking on planes was allowed) and it would be very sexy to know a girl of any age has a dark-side smoke fetish. However, I don't think it's a very positive fetish to have, so I honestly hope it dies out somehow and doesn't continue to propegate. I think it's better for everyone if we're not attracted to things that are bad for us. It's the very absurdity of smoking and the fact that no one should do it that turns me on about it in the first place. It's unfortunate that I'm saddled with the fetish and I hope others are spared it in the future (though I fear those PSAs may be creating an army of us?). Having said that, though, there's no denying or taking away the fact that I have the fetish and I get great joy from smoke fetish material and situations and intend to squeeze as much joy as I can from what's available. I really wish there was more dark-side material on the web for us. As far as fluctuations in my smoking - I suppose I do smoke more when I'm in "the zone", so to speak. I do smoke more at other times, though, like when I'm stressed or nervous, just like non-fetishers. The wrongness of smoking is the very heart of the fetish for me. The fact that we choose to do this to ourselves despite the fact that it's destructive to our bodies and health is what's so erotic about it. Also, I think it happens to be a destructive act that just by chance is constructed in a uniquely sensual way that's conducive to being eroticized. I can't imagine that I could fall so deeply into a fetish for clubbing myself on the head, for example, even if beautiful women all around me were doing that. I do get excitement from damaging my own body as a sort of reflection of the women's bodies that are being destroyed. I suppose that it's a way to capture the magic of smoking and take it home with you. It may be the equivalent of a man who really loves lingerie wearing his wife's lingerie. Let me know what you think. I can write more later. Thanks.
Hi Vesparae. Sorry for the delayed reply. I don't get to check these boards that often. I'll go ahead and answer some questions from you and Marcus.
There's something special about how the smoke IS a woman's breath. That she's deliberately forcing dirty air deep into her chest. Coincidentally, she's destroying her body right underneath one of the most sensual and sexual parts of her body - her breasts. And her breasts actually act as markers of where the destruction is taking place. Each breast has a lung situated right under it and her breasts move as her lungs move. She's attacking the very heart of her femininity. I think all of those considerations are very significant.
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