[ Post a Response | The Sublime Desire of Cigarette Smoking ]
Posted by Marcus on February 14, 2007, 1:28 pm, in reply to "Moments of excitement (long post)" I'm intrigued by your comments that smoking is wrong but erotic. To what extent, for you, is the wrongness of smoking what makes it erotic? I also have an interest in and attraction to the effect smoking has on my own body, although it is only a fraction of my fetish. I also enjoy being in good health. For me part of the attraction is the contradiction and contrast. Part of the contradiction and contrast is the delicate interface between enjoying the dominance I have exercised over my body and continue to exercise by forcing it to accept the repeated onslaught of toxins, and the dominance it, now addicted, exercises over me. Were I to stop smoking my physical and psychological discomfort would be very real indeed.
Welcome. I enjoyed reading your post and hope that you will continue to do so. You mention that your fetish varies in strength and that its fluctuations seem to be linked to your physical sexual activity. Do you find that your own smoking varies in relation to the fluctuations in your fetish? For example, when your fetish is being satisfied abundantly, do you smoke less but when it isn't you smoke more?
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