The final milestone - An anti climax
Posted by The Therapist on 15/3/2012, 12:19 am
I have been largely over my 20 years of pauresis for a year or so now but I still felt a bit nervous if someone I knew well was standing next to me in case they started talking to me. Thats how it all started you see. People talking to me about work when I was trying to pee.(Why the hell do people do that) |
Anyway, yesterday after giving a presentation in work I went for a pee and one of my colleagues stands right next to me at the urinal and starts a conversation about my presentation. There was a bit of a long pause and then bit of a pathetic flow and then hey presto full flow.
When things were bad I thought this day would bring elation but it didn't. Why, you may ask. Well the thing is, recovery from pauresis is a slow process. As you gradually start to realise its no big deal whether you can pee or not so it gets easier to pee. 3 years ago I couldnt even tell my wife. Now I talk freely about it to anyone. (and found others who have the same problem in doing so).
So Im pleased I got over the final hurdle but not elated. I hope others have the same anti climax as me because if you do it means you are over it.