Time to try de-sensing I think
Posted by J on 7/12/2011, 11:15 pm
I'm in my late 20's, and i've had this for quite a long time, probably since early teens. I'm at a point where i don't think i can use urinals, but then i haven't even tried in about 10 years or more, probably from fear of failure i guess. Funnily enough, i'm actually better now than when I was a teenager, as I can remember struggling in cubicles back then which I don't really have any problems with anymore, so it's not entirely crippling nowadays at least. Although I have alot of sad memories from my late teens of either being gagging for a slash in pubs with grotty little bogs and long queues, or crying off from parties early with some lame excuse.
Sadly, i now work in a big office, mostly blokes, and the tiniest office bogs you can imagine that isn't just a solo-loo (which would actually be easier for me lol!). Even though there are nicer, less 'intimate', public loos locally which i do occasionally use in my breaks, i am regularly holding it to bursting point, or just not drinking much all day, and i'm concerned that this isn't doing my body much good.
I suppose i'm posting this in an attempt to commit myself to actually doing some de-sensing, rather than just thinking about it. I'm not going to try in the work bogs, cos although im alright in the cubicle, the urinals have high traffic of my managers/colleagues and i think i'd make very little progress there. But i'm going to try using the public loos I occasionally use to try some de-sensing.
What would people recommend? Should I just take the nuclear option and go straight for a urinal and have a go? I guess the worst thing that happens is i fail, and use the cubicle instead. It's been so long since i tried anything that kind of tests me, i just always take the easy option that i know i'll succeed with. I know people will advise me to go on the course, but i'd rather have a try on my own and see if i make any progress, and reserve the course as an option if i fail miserably.
I'm not entirely sure why i typed all this out really, I assume the info i need is on the main site anyway. Nice just to 'get it out' in a way, even if anonymously. It'd be even nicer to actually go out and have a few beers without worrying if the pub loos have a cubicle before I even need to use them lol!