Posted by Gary on May 5, 2012, 2:16 am, in reply to "Frustrations"
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Beach, I know your frustrations all too well man, and every since I first introduced my wife to regular cigs AND the e-cig, it just seems like that whenever her and I are intimate I have to have her using one or the other or it just doesn't turn me on nearly as much and I feel really guilty, but I just can't help it, she's just too damn sexy when she's vaping/smoking (mainly smoking) and I've told her that many times and she just feels very flattered and says "Awwwww...well thanks hun" it doesn't appear to bother her and I'm certainly hoping that it stays that way.
I've even had days that she wasn't in the mood for smoking or even using the e-cig, but I was craving her smoking for me so much that I'd actually ask her to take a 120 unlit and just pretend, that's how much it turns me on...and granted! she offered to use the e-cig with zero nicotine to help me out, but (as you fellas know) it's just not the same! NOW, IS THAT DESPERATE OR WHAT! My fetish is just so strong at times that I just absolutely CANNOT help it fellas.
I can remember being even as young as 3-4 years old and getting turned on watching my sister's girlfriend smoke and I would sit there and stare at her as her friend would tell my sister that I was kinda creeping her out while the two of them would just sit there and laugh at me hysterically and yell for my mother to come get me out of the room so they could listen to records and talk about boys.."lol back then I was obviously too young to understand why I was so fixated on my sister's friend smoking, but knew that I was turned on by it and the fetish just became stronger and stronger and by the time I was 13 I was smoking myself and eagerly and desperately searching for women smoking everywhere and anywhere I could..county fairs, carnivals, bowling alleys, ball games, rock concerts, malls, amusement parks etc. etc.
I mean it's who I am..an extension of me fellas! and I battle it everyday and some days are stronger than others, if ya know what I mean. The bottom line here guys is that no matter how much and often that you try to explain the hold and affect that it has on you, your better half will never fully understand and that can be tremendously frustrating..TREMENDOUSLY!!! I'll never give up hope that maybe one day they'll come up with some sort of safe cigarette that burns just like the real thing, but without all the bad chemicals in it and what not...I know..I know, it's a pipe dream, but ya never know! HEY! they invented e-cigs no? so anything's possible fellas.
take care,
Gary
--Previous Message--
: I guess maybe I have had the fetish for as
: long as I can remember but I never really
: had it defined until I started reading some
: of these boards.
:
: I have read and heard many different places
: that any type of fetish is not something
: that can be cured including the smoking
: fetish.
:
: To me it is frustrating sometimes to have
: this incredible desire to see a woman
: smoking and especially to see my wife smoke
: again once she started smoking and then
: decided that she didn't want to continue
: after a year and a half.
:
: Sometimes I feel guilty about the fetish,
: but at the same time it really isn't
: something that I feel I can completely
: control. It does have a tendancy to get in
: the way of some things and I wonder and wish
: to find a way to make it more manageable.
:
: My wife and I were in a rut before she ever
: tried her 1st cigarette and once she
: started, it really woke our relationship up.
: Now that she has stopped, I find that I
: don't enjoy our "date nights" as
: much because I miss that point in the
: evening when she will smoke with me. In
: addition, now that we don't share this
: intimacy, it seems that she has withdrawn a
: little bit and become more involved in her
: other interests and I feel like I have been
: left behind to fend for myself.
:
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