Posted by David McCannon Link: Olympic Pin Collector and Web Designer
on 10/7/2003, 10:40 pm
172.137.12.141
What am I to do with this beast called depression? I live with it everyday of my life. It will take over and rule me if I let it. No one seems to understand how real it is and how it affects me. Most of family thinks I am just putting on an act. It is all just in my head. They think I should be able to turn it on and off like a light switch. There is nothing wrong with you. You could have victory over this, if you really wanted it. You must not be a Christian, or God is punishing you for unconfess sin in your life. You have no reason to be depressed; perhaps it is your meds that are keeping you down. You are too medicated that may also be your problem. All I wanted to do was to talk and enjoy some time of fellowship with them. All I got for my trouble was criticisized. Moving away from home was the best thing I have done. I have found absolute peace of mind by putting some distance between them and myself. They don't get it sometimes all I need is love and just for them to listen. I thank God for my church family, because without them I would not have any support at all. No wonder I sometimes feel like killing myself. With the death of my closets friends my mom and grandmother, and the lost of my career and not having any money to pay my bills is enough to depress anyone. With family support like mine, who needs enemies? My future is uncertain and that scares me to death. Will I have a place to live next month? Will I be able to make it? All I can do is live one day at a time, and hope for the best.
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