Posted by Indigo
on February 11, 2008, 7:31 pm
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I'm so unhappy. I feel like I'm in a endless circle and I can't get out.
Five years ago I was diagnosed with a
hyperthyroid. I had lost weight even though I was eating like a pig. I was always starving.
The medications they put me on to slow my thyroid down caused me to gain weight. I became depressed and was in pain from a bulging disc in my lower back. My doctor then put me on medication for the pain and medication to help slow the effects of the medication that was causing my weight gain.
I lost 50 pounds. I felt good. My back didn't hurt, I could sleep and wasn't out of breath.
Then the medication threw me into depression. Along with the anti-depressants came weight gain and that uncontrollable hunger.
50 pounds heavier, I've finally stopped all medication except one for the back pain.
I can't sleep and I feel awful. The back pain is worse the heavier I get.
I just can't turn off the hunger. I'm always hungry and I eat then get upset for eating and eat more.
I don't want to do anything. I don't want to leave home, I don't want to buy clothes, I don't want to take the kids to the park, I just want to crawl under a rock and hide. I would have surgery tomorrow if it was that easy!
It's an endless circle of hell! How do I make it stop?
Indi
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