He's had a few instances of getting so chilled that he could only lay in bed with extra covers and a heating pad. So, week before last, he went to see his doctor. She set up an appt to have his abdomen ultra-sounded where they discovered a mass of something in the liver/gallbladder area.
She got the results and managed to get him an MRI the next day. She got those results back and there is a large mass, though she's still not sure exactly where it is and is currently trying to get him an appt for a biopsy (hopefully this week).
I thought I was doing okay but, after posting last week's images and the anniversary post, I kinda lost it -- all that remembering just reminded me of how healthy he used to be and I couldn't handle it. And when I can't handle real life, I retreat. After streaming a bunch of movies, I started watching a tv series that I really like - Grimm - and have been working my way thru the seasons (almost done with S3). I came in here everyday but just couldn't face it, so I turned around and left.
Yesterday, I wrote myself a note to get images out before I went to bed but somehow managed to ignore it. Just after I shut the 'puter off and was straightening up my desk, I saw the note, said, 'screw it', and went to bed.
Sigh...
I just looked thru all the imaging I missed and it's wonderful! Kat, thank you for doing a bit a imaging, loved it all. Also loved your walk down memory lane! Made me really miss webby and all the good times we had.
Hopefully, my keel will get more even! Right now, it's the 'not knowing' that's really messing with me. I'm a worrier and my brain can't help imaging all the worse things that can happen - that's why I escape into whatever will take my mind off the the worry. Once we know exactly what we're dealing with, I should be better.
Also, I have a couple of teeth that are messed up and I've been living on Orajel the last few days, which is making me cranky as well as worried, and I really just want to crawl back into Grimm and lose it all...
So, that's where I'm at. How ya'll doing..?
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