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It would be helpful for you to talk with others in a similar position. Perhaps check to see if there are any be support groups in your area. Seeing a therapist can be helpful too. They can help teach you how to cope with anxiety.
Best to you. Come back here if you want to chat more. I've been poking my head in here every so often for 15 years now. It all started when my wife had to deal with this beast.