Posted by Vernie on February 19, 2012, 9:26 pm
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It's hitting us both how hard it's going to be to not think of sweet little Payten when Rylan is born in a couple of weeks. We've both been in tears all day and so has Jared (Payten's father). Every where we turn, there is reminders, or questions that people ask, and there are still no answers as to what truly happened, but they are getting closer with the investigation. I have been having what I believe are panic attacks while I'm driving and it's so scary, I get dizzy and it's like an outer body experience and then I'm very emotional. I'm going to the doctor tomorrow to see if I can get some help. It's been so hard to deal with this, harder than all the good intentioned loving people here know. But you get it here. You understand. I had to take Payten's picture off my fridge today, only for awhile. It just hurts too much. We'd appreciate your prayers for some healing and coping with all of this... Chelsey and I feel like we've hit a brick wall today. Love, Vernie
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