Posted by Madonna on October 26, 2010, 12:22 pm
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I'm sure most have noticed that I haven't been around a lot lately, and there's a good reason. My marriage of 26 years is ended.
Today my husband left to live and work for about a year in Florida. It was a great opportunity to further his career, he said...one he couldn't pass up.
He has ADHD and OCD...untreated by choice. To say that has made life more difficult is an understatement. It has been hell. Of course there is much more....things said and done that have left terrible wounds. They are not visible on the outside, but inside...there is great pain. It will take time for these to heal...if they even can.
He actually left seven months ago at my insistence. I couldn't bear it anymore...I was limp and drained and barely living. I am better now but not whole. It will take time.
This is not a cancer death, but it is a death. The death of a dream and a family unit. I cry...and then I laugh. I live and love as always. I mother my sons with all the love I have. They love me back.
I have many friends that I can count on for a shoulder...all of you among them.
Thanks for letting me lean a little...
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