Posted by Hope on October 23, 2008, 8:23 am, in reply to "mourning my pre cancer body"
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Oh honey. I know you feel like you're alone but you're not. You're not. A lot of us have felt jes like you while we struggled with recon. Chemo made me gain a ton of weight too. I was miserable and had poor self-esteem in the darkest parts of myself.
I also had expanders in (five years) before deciding that I wanted to get a DIEP done. I couldn't be happier. It helped a LOT. To lose so much of my abdominal fat made me feel like I was a closer to who I was and that encouraged me to get out and fight the rest of it off. The fibromyalgia is still there sometimes but lately, the last year or so, I've had fewer effects from it. Still get the foot pain and fatigue but it's not as severe. Perhaps you'll have the same results as me.
I hope so, honey. You're unique and valuable. You shouldn't have to feel this way and certainly, no offense, your kids shouldn't tease you right now.....it isn't funny to be in this much pain.
Have you looked for a support group or a perhaps a counselor? Also, the main board here (the first link to the right on the big main page, at the top of the list that you clicked on to get here), there're jes tons of friendly, warm women who can support you and who will be happy to meet you.
I know you'll come back from this, sweepea. I know you will.
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