Posted by george on October 23, 2008, 5:11 am, in reply to "Re: mom passed"
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michelle, i remember the day my mother passed away, and i left my family at my parent's house to be by myself for a bit at my apartment. in the evening, i went to the grocery store, imagining my mother was there with me, when the checkout lady asked how i was doing, i simply said, "I'm doing fine", of course not telling her that my mother died that afternoon.
it can be hard when you see others who are happy or who still have parents, etc. but i knew that my mother just couldn't fight anymore, cancer had really done a job on her and her courage was beyond imaginable, yet in the end, she had to return to god,she just couldn't stay here any longer.
and so, i had to realize that our lives are our own, each one of us, and that god makes his decisions in his time, not ours, but his.
now, when i see others with parents (i lost both 25 days apart, my dad died a few weeks after my mother), i just admire, and i am happy for them, because they are very fortunate. then again i am too, i had them for the time that i did.
it's like, when i hear of a woman losing her battle, it's very sad, when i hear of a woman who's winning, i'm very happy, because for every woman who loses, another one wins and that let's me keep hope alive.
there are very hard days michelle and you will experience them, but you will decide how you are going to live your life, and more importantly, how you are going to have your own level of contentment, it will happen in your time.
i pretty much stay away from the fundraising thing, it's good to have, but i just give privately when i want to. i keep my mother close to my heart and i do the best i can.
you will too, just believe that you will...george
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