Posted by Hope on October 17, 2008, 12:20 am, in reply to "mom passed"
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Even though you knew she was fightin' the battle, it's reasonable after 7 years to assume you'll have a few mo years.
Po' baby. 
I'm so very sorry for your loss. Mothers dyin' is especially hard for daughters.....we get so much from them (good and bad, much betta as we age, I hope), they help form our identities for heaven's sake. And lots of lucky, lucky children are absolutely devoted to their moms and that feeling is returned deeply by the mom. Those are wonderful, wonderful relationships to treasure. Sounds like you mom might be this type of person. What a gift she was, in that event! And how hard it is to lose that gift.
I wish I had some magic word that will help speed your healing process. Unfortunately, it's jes a thing we have to live through. The pain now is all about you. Her suffering is over and she's in a much finer situation than the one she left cancer wise. But the loss is there and real foi ya right now.
All I can say to you is that you will not always feel like you're unable to handle daily life. You will get betta, you will live again and not in pain, I promise. It takes time and patience.
Betta days are ahead. Do you have a good support network? is the rest of the family there for you and vice versa (giving outside ourselves helps ease the grief symptoms)? Are you makin' sure to get plenty of rest? Grief is exhausting and sometimes leads to disturbed sleep patterns that can linger for months, which only makes it worse.
We're here a lot so feel free to post whatever/whenever you like, honey.
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