Posted by rhonda wV on October 12, 2008, 2:02 pm
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Lost my mom nine years ago today and it is still an acute wound ... and 7 years ago in this month, my bc journey began with the ultrasound of a suspicious lump and a radiolgist who wouldn't let me leave the hospital without trying to first call my ob/gyn ... I went straight to a surgeon and then had the definitive FNA followed by surgery in November .... somehow, I've lost much of my former affection for these two months ... all associated with bc and losing my parents (Dad passed in Nov. of "81) .... used to be, when I'd get a crisp fall breeze in my face, it would be exhilerating .. now, it's like the cold coming off the granite of a tomb ... crap, this too shall pass and I'll be ok ... just having a down in the dumps kind of self indulgent sad moment and I guess I need to be that little curly headed girl I once was as I stamp my feet and yell, NO, NO, NO ... didn't help then, doesn't help now ... LOL ... except to wear me out and let me exhaust out of the mood ... guess it does work, in a manner of speaking... Thanks for listening.