Posted by Caroline on March 31, 2008, 5:02 pm, in reply to "Put my dog to sleep today:("
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It's so quiet. I keep waiting for Suki to come through the door. I look for her behind me and she's not there. She was a real house dog - up on the sofa, lying about the kitchen, at my feet. Now there's nothing. I can't believe how much I miss her noises. Her snores, sighs, prancing up and down the wooden floor, pawing at the door, drinking loudly from her bowl.
I vaccumed yesterday and felt I was getting rid of the last little bit of her as I vaccumed up all the black hairs I've been cursing for years. I washed and put the bowls away, gave her bed to my cousin's dog, got rid of all the food and treats. I can't bear the constant reminders.
Today I left work and couldn't go home. Suki would often have come to work with me and we would go for a walk by the sea on our way home. She wasn't there and it was a beautiful evening. I did well all day until I found a bone in work and left to go home without her. I couldn't stop crying and so called with a friend who cheered me up.
I'm also feeling really bad - I think her body would have been taking to the crematorium today for cremation. I can hardly bear to think of her being burned. She brought so much love and joy and i loved the smell of that thick black coat. It seems horrible she ends up in a fire. I get the ashes back later this week.
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