Posted by Beth on August 6, 2009, 2:07 pm, in reply to "Aaahh Yes, drinks & massage!"
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I feel like I'm not coping very well lately either. I think the pain plus the weather conditions we are having have a lot to do with how we are feeling. I normally get depressed in the winter but it has lasted unti now. When the sun comes out I feel better but it never lasts long enough to maie a lasting difference and I slide backwards. I'm feeling isolated too as none of my former friends ask me to do things anymore because I always have to cancel because I'm not feeling up to going out. They don't understand. I'm also worried about the proposed healthcare bills out there now. I wonder how will they impact me and my daughter? Will we have access to the treatment we need, the prescriptions, the doctors we have been seeing for years now? We're both on Medicare and Erin has Medicaid but I have to have a supplementary insurance plan to cover what they don't for myself and pay out of pocket for Erin's 20% co-pay since it's virtually impossible to find a doctor who will accept Medicaid. I really can't afford to do this but we need to see the doctors so what else can I do? Clinics are a long wait and very crowded and with Erin's bipolar and developmental problems she gets aggitated after a little while and acts up. If it's this bad now I can only imagine what it will be like in the future.
People keep telling me to keep busy, find a hobby, volunteer, etc. to get my mond off of things and I will be less depressed. Where they think I will find the time I don't know. Anyhow, I've been there, done that, it doesn't help. The only ones why really understand are you and the other Pondies who are walking the same walk with chronic illness and pain. Thank God we have each other here. Sorry for the long post, I needed to vent today.
Hugs, Beth
PS Sorry about the spelling the brain is foggy today.
--Previous Message--
: O ain't it awful the way this weather and
: stress just cripples us mentally and
: physically! You poor dear, I know you
: have a lot on you plate. I'm sending
: you some of my spoons in hopes of them
: helping you some how.
: Bipolar is such a difficult disorder to
: keep in check if the patient doesn't
: take the right meds or can't for some
: reason. My heart goes out to you Beth.
: Here's your drink, now lay back an try
: to relax, Squidward will be here soon.
: I'm still feeling like my face cheeks
: are dragging on the floor,, I'm feeling
: so down and not with the program at
: all. I don't know what's the matter
: with me... ?
: Be good to yourself and I'll keep
: Praying for all of us to recieve some
: measure of Help, Peace, Health, and
: Laughs! Soft hugs to you, deb
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