Posted by Jesse on January 5, 2004, 8:01 pm, in reply to "help!my life is crap."
My life is crap. I have three young kids and Im so young myself, the dad keeps helping me out and then just disappearing and leaving me on my *ss when Im a full time student, and I work full time. This shit is driving me crazy. I cant quit what Im doing but at the same time I want to do nothing. Its not fair how those jackasses can just run off whenever they feel like it. All I think about is one day this will all pay off, and it better. But then I remember that bad things happen to good people. Look at all those freaks out there getting away with murder having fun and partying, when theres people like me trying to get a great life and being put down on the way by parents, bf's. Sometimes i wish I was dead but I dont wanna kill myself. I bet heaven is better, but you DONT go there when you commit suicide. I am getting baptized this Sunday becaues I turned to God to take all the weight off of me. I want to feel like a new person again and find happiness somewhere. Baptism is a new start, so if youre feeling alone, thin kabout it, it may be the answer to everything. My bf followed me to this small town, and now I hear from my new friends at school how they are running into him at the bar and everything, he always takes over my life. Ive been on a freaking rollercoaster for 7 years now, and Im sick of this. Like when does it end? Dont kill yourself though, dont do that please! Im going to prove my parents wrong, they think this single is same shit different pile, Ill be the only one in my family who ever did anything important in thier life. People who struggle the most turn out the most successful, and then you hear then saying that they used to have nothing and now they have everything, Just dont give up man, I think the devil sees what people are so importanat and tries to derail them throuout thier life to stop thier huge success cuz thats what the enemy hates. Dont give up and youre gonna be something HUGE.....youll see and so will I. ok that was serious, but really, good luck!!!
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