Posted by GYNFounder It sounds like you are in a rough situation. One thing you should start to do is to look yourself in a brighter and more positive way. There is hope for you. There are dreams for you to hold on to. You have to believe in yourself. It sounds cheezy, but these are the basics if you want to change your life. Look at your surroundings and your life with a more open mind. Try not to think of yourself as "the outcast" or "the outsider." Everyone is different in his or her own way. It is a matter of how you can integrate your personality and eccentricities with others. Try joining clubs or other social groups that have similar interests. Are there any clubs that you can join? There, you might find people who are like-minded. Try volunteering for a community organization. You will learn that there are many people with diverse backgrounds. Also, helping others can help you feel great! The main idea is to think of yourself in a positive light. Do not let minor obstacles in life hind you from reaching your dreams. You are better than that! You know it. --Previous Message-- Link: http://www.youthwhocare.com
on January 19, 2004, 1:15 pm, in reply to "dug my hole too deep"
Hi,
: two years ago my two best friends at high
: school and the only people who ever really
: knew and liked me as who i was, moved away at
: the end of that year (one overseas, one far
: out of town).
: from then it's been a downward spiral and i
: think im at the end of my rope. i can't keep
: up my facade any longer. the first year after
: they left I was alright, i hung around with a
: few people and wagged school all the time. i
: was compeltely miserable though because i had
: to change while i was around them. at the end
: of that year however, i fell out of step. i
: don't know how but i missed SOMETHING, and
: suddenly i wasnt doing anything or going out
: anymore, and school was living hell. there is
: no one there i can relate to at all. everyone
: sees me as a loser with no social life. when
: i try to join in to conversations i find i
: have no words. even though i still talk to my
: old two best friends who moved, i miss being
: social. lately i cant stand it and i become
: so lonely i dont think i can take it. ive
: tried doing things with people from school
: but they seem like another species. i
: completely lost sense of who i was or who i
: wanted to be and i feel like nothing more
: than a shadow of what was. i still have two
: years left of high school but doubt that i
: could make it through that long time without
: real friends. i cant even watch tv anymore
: because it makes me depressed watching people
: who actually care and suppourt each other,
: and i feel ashamed saying it. lately ive been
: smoking alot of weed which can be pretty fun
: sometimes but also makes me see the things i
: hate about myself more clearly.
: i can see no way out of this. each time i
: step up and have hope, all my feelings become
: repressed and only come back two fold the
: next time i get emotionally unstable (which
: is more and more often).
: i hate my situation and i hate myself for
: putting me here
: what can i do?
: i feel so helpless because though i want to
: live and i have so many dreams i hold on to,
: i can't take the suffocation any longer and
: im afraid that it wont be long before i
: succumb to it
:
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