Posted by Linda M on 10/31/2005, 4:39 am, in reply to "Re: Is Anyone Home Anymore?" --Previous Message--
152.163.100.135
Jim your message is wonderful news. I'm so glad to read of your success with life (living in the moment). I have decided to come out of "early retirement" to go back to "work". No responses yet but, I'll keep on trying and putting in new applications. Your message about your job and promotion has inspired me even more. I agree with you about the message board however, things are always as they should be in giving us learning experiences. Congratulations, and love to you also. PS--Jesus is a great teacher and one of the greatest lessons I have learned from Him is Love because love is tender. Love is patient. Love is a good listener. Love is forgiving. Love is being forgiven. Love waits on the sidelines until we decide to re-direct our lives toward the real meaning of love. And, that is love for self.
: For some reason I only feel motivated
: to talk here when I'm having
: difficulties. I wrote a while ago
: that I was feeling bad about myself
: and having trouble finding a job. I
: went to heavy equipment operator's
: school and got a job straight out of
: school doing soil stabilization for
: big construction projects. I started
: out at $18/hr and have been promoted
: to Quality Control which will be
: about $25/hr. I am enjoying the work
: tremendously. It is much more than I
: allowed myself to expect since my
: 'breakdown'. My life feels new and
: adventurous. I leave tomorrow for a
: long job in California where I'll be
: staying in a hotel. I feel happy and
: excited. It's not the same kind of
: happiness I felt when I was really
: coming out of my deep depression and
: doing a lot of spiritual work and
: reading EC. That was a very content
: and disciplined feeling. This one is
: more of a high and less secure but I
: have learned a few things and I am
: taking actions intended to keep me
: in the moment and turn this new job
: into something lasting.
:
: Before my 'break' I had a great job
: but I just went crazy with 2 car
: payments and a giant house payment
: and drinking all the time and it
: just couldn't last.
:
: Now I am choosing not to take any
: new payments. It doesn't matter if I
: spend all the money I make, even
: frivolously, it just matters that
: I'm not creating anchors that will
: drag me down if I stop working. I am
: also respecting my family more.
:
: It boils down to the mechanics of
: interactions. My interactions with
: others (wife, kids) are intended to
: help produce opportunity in their
: lives/support endeavors. My
: interactions with myself are
: intended to keep me in the
: moment/smelling the trees and not
: create financial or spiritual debt
: that pull me down.
:
: Love/add no weight/open eyes
:
: My old burden was too heavy. My new
: burden is simply to remember not to
: pick up the old burden again.
:
: This new lightness is due in no
: small part to John Ruskan. I'm sure
: I've read 30 or 40 related books and
: and EC stands out far above the
: rest. I wish there was a way to let
: the world know about it, although I
: suppose that's how religion starts,
: when someone feels they have the
: answer for everyone else. The people
: who start it simply want people to
: know but then eventually if enough
: recruits are militant about it they
: find their compliment in people who
: are gullible and the militants and
: gullibles go off on there own and
: have a religion.
:
: Jesus was a great teacher. It's too
: bad people today use his name for a
: cause that realy has nothing to do
: with him.
:
: Something about the way this board
: is set up is not conducive to
: discussion. I can't quite put my
: finger on what it is but If I was
: really in need of support I think I
: would go somewhere else. It's not
: the people at all, just the way this
: board is set up. Maybe it would be
: better if everyones comments were
: visible on the initial screen so
: that it actually looked like a
: discussion and there wouldn't be
: this picking and choosing what to
: read.
:
: Any way, good look Linda, my love to
: you and everyone else. Jim
:
: --Previous Message--
: What has happened to communication?
: Is everyone's life so successful the
: sharing message board is no longer
: needed? I miss you guys. Let me
: know something. I'm feeling
: abandoned. I had enough of that in
: my childhood. If everyone is really
: successful with their emotions let
: me know what I need to do to get
: there too.
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