Posted by Jim on 10/30/2005, 4:58 am, in reply to "Is Anyone Home Anymore?" Before my 'break' I had a great job but I just went crazy with 2 car payments and a giant house payment and drinking all the time and it just couldn't last. Now I am choosing not to take any new payments. It doesn't matter if I spend all the money I make, even frivolously, it just matters that I'm not creating anchors that will drag me down if I stop working. I am also respecting my family more. It boils down to the mechanics of interactions. My interactions with others (wife, kids) are intended to help produce opportunity in their lives/support endeavors. My interactions with myself are intended to keep me in the moment/smelling the trees and not create financial or spiritual debt that pull me down. Love/add no weight/open eyes My old burden was too heavy. My new burden is simply to remember not to pick up the old burden again. This new lightness is due in no small part to John Ruskan. I'm sure I've read 30 or 40 related books and and EC stands out far above the rest. I wish there was a way to let the world know about it, although I suppose that's how religion starts, when someone feels they have the answer for everyone else. The people who start it simply want people to know but then eventually if enough recruits are militant about it they find their compliment in people who are gullible and the militants and gullibles go off on there own and have a religion. Jesus was a great teacher. It's too bad people today use his name for a cause that realy has nothing to do with him. Something about the way this board is set up is not conducive to discussion. I can't quite put my finger on what it is but If I was really in need of support I think I would go somewhere else. It's not the people at all, just the way this board is set up. Maybe it would be better if everyones comments were visible on the initial screen so that it actually looked like a discussion and there wouldn't be this picking and choosing what to read. Any way, good look Linda, my love to you and everyone else. Jim --Previous Message--
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For some reason I only feel motivated to talk here when I'm having difficulties. I wrote a while ago that I was feeling bad about myself and having trouble finding a job. I went to heavy equipment operator's school and got a job straight out of school doing soil stabilization for big construction projects. I started out at $18/hr and have been promoted to Quality Control which will be about $25/hr. I am enjoying the work tremendously. It is much more than I allowed myself to expect since my 'breakdown'. My life feels new and adventurous. I leave tomorrow for a long job in California where I'll be staying in a hotel. I feel happy and excited. It's not the same kind of happiness I felt when I was really coming out of my deep depression and doing a lot of spiritual work and reading EC. That was a very content and disciplined feeling. This one is more of a high and less secure but I have learned a few things and I am taking actions intended to keep me in the moment and turn this new job into something lasting.
: What has happened to communication?
: Is everyone's life so successful the
: sharing message board is no longer
: needed? I miss you guys. Let me
: know something. I'm feeling
: abandoned. I had enough of that in
: my childhood. If everyone is really
: successful with their emotions let
: me know what I need to do to get
: there too.
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