Posted by Angela on 6/8/2005, 9:14 am, in reply to "?" and at those times is it others you need? What happens if you stay with that discomfort and breathe it breathe it and breathe it, what images, senses feelings or what ever appear? I've since found out, to my surprise that loneliness covered up and showed up my inner child and I've had several insights and 'viewings' of myself wondering alone around my early schools feeling alone, and sad, unhappy, and realising 'I didnt like school' now thats something I know many people relate to, however, for me this was a revelation! and to own it something else, the feelings had been so suppressed..I also, for eg, felt alienated at school, when my dad was very seriously ill in hospital, very sad and alone amongst the many people messing around as usual all around, These insights have helped the puzzle of my life and school is a place amongst alot of people, and how ever you have to be, to survive it, the feelings perceptions of those times are still there, I noted that when I've felt weak this relates to vunerability, thats covered over feelings of inadequacy...et al, what would you feel /experience if at the onset of reaching for a drug you stay with the feeling instead and let the subconscious speak/ show you those times when you learnt to feel that, and sometimes even asking yourself 'whats the source of this feeling' is enough for various incidents to come forward and eventual healing to emerge. What do you do to reconnect when you feel disconnected this could be a key point, how do you rescue yourself at those times?....I find breathing and asking for help saying how I feel and knowing that an answer, an answer insome form is there helps, a stillness that is...... something worth mentioneing, our feelings become so ingrained we're so used to our particular set that accepting this whilst simultaneously deciding how we do want to be is very freeing,and yea that's ok. This honours the feelings for release whilst opening to who we are and what wedo want to focus on Hope this helps I feel for you on this oneand doing this work, as we along time ago acknowledged can in some way perpetuate aloneness that is until finding out releasing it and resonating something different, I know I'd love to feel close enough to others real time to share , I do on a remote level inner communication and I feel close to source this is beautiful and as such I think the aloneness has lessened because I feel easier in my own skin now. Blessings with this and lots of goodness --Previous Message--
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yea I can relate to this........ hiya seth, several points here though:
are you showing that you want people when even you feel away from yourself.....
To illustrate:
: Wow when this page dies it really
: dies, I wonder what is up with that?
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: Anyways I was wondering if anyone
: has ever run into times when they're
: totally alienated? This experience
: is not a normal event to process
: because it's like I'm totally
: disconnected from life itself.
: You see I'm a type a person if I see
: someone totally out of it I'll share
: my presense with them to help them
: feel at ease, but the times when I
: experience alienation in myself, or
: just being uncomfortable in my own
: skin, its like I seem to be shun by
: people, it's really weird. It
: creates a real lonliness, and a
: sense of weakness.
: I think its fair to say that this
: feeling usually shows up as a result
: of some sort of drug use, even
: though I'm really healthy 92.64% of
: the time, but even those break downs
: into drug use are the result of not
: seeming to find a place with other
: people. And the more I grow and
: learn the further my connection with
: others results. Does anyone have
: any thoughts on what sort of
: dynamics might be at work here?
: I'm the biggest Lonner, but that
: isn't my nature at all, it makes no
: sense.
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