Posted by Michael Harris
on 6/16/2009, 8:00 am, in reply to "Too Intense; Advice Please!!!!"
24.2.167.24
Quite an interesting and intense post. I believe, Abigail, it might help you to work a little on your connection to the protective light/energy from above, and the grounding qualities of Earth energy. The earth energy can nurture, but can also receive negative energy so it can be absorbed/transmuted. Use that image to release aspects of your experience that you don't want. Reinforce your experience of being protected by the white light - as a bubble of protective energy around you. All of which you are feeling is energy and it will not/can not hurt you. Perhaps there is some judgment intermingling with your experience - an expectation of what should or shouldn't be. If you can release those and simply experience, the process will take care of itself. I'd be happy to try to help with some visualization if you would like. I'm certified through Jon's program. Contact me through my http://harris-mgmt.com.
--Previous Message--
: Hello Any and Everyone.
:
: I finished Emotional Clearing a week
: ago and have been meditating and
: doing yoga daily since, both of
: which are brand new practices for
: me.
:
: After 3 days, I began noticing that
: by alternating between
: "holding" the pains in my
: chest and throat (as in a nice soft
: bubble) and breathing prana into
: them, they would eventually release
: warm floods of tingly energy down my
: arms and into my 3rd and 2nd
: chakras. Prior to this pleasant
: release I was feeling the impulse to
: twitch, shake, jerk around in the
: neck and arms as happens in
: "somatic experiencing"
: therapy (something I had a few very
: intense sessions with quite a long
: time ago). I resisted these
: movements, however, afraid that I
: would not be able to integrate the
: experience properly or get out of it
: without reaching the point of
: "overwhelm", something I
: was told I did not want to happen.
: Also it felt quite uncomfortable in
: my neck in the sitting position.
:
: Two days ago I noticed my 1st chakra
: (right in the perineum)vibrating
: like a tiny little drill was in
: there (!!) and then a VERY powerful
: surge of warm tingles started
: pouring upward into my abdomen. As
: the surge was starting I felt like I
: was about to leave/change
: consciousness/check out/lose the
: witness part of the experience which
: was very frightening so I clenched
: down on the whole thing and
: apologized to my body/self for so
: abruptly halting the process.
:
: Immediately afterward and ever since
: I have had cold chills sweeping up
: my legs into my abdomen, diarhea and
: racing heart. TOO MUCH, TOO FAST, I
: say.
:
: So what to do now? I have stopped
: meditating altogether and am
: consciously engaging in displacement
: behaviour, distraction, trying to
: comfort myself with prayer, music,
: pleasant thoughts and safe company.
: At first I was even purposely
: physically blocking the persistent
: tingling at my first chakra. But the
: sensation of fear persisted, of
: course.
:
: Now I know that, according to the
: book, I was doing everything I
: wasn't supposed to do with the fear
: (ie. trying to resupress it) but I
: was afraid of the chakra continueing
: to "leak" fear into my
: system even though I'm not
: meditating anymore or, worse,
: release it like a dam being breached
: and overwhelm me.
:
: So, yes, fear of fear, fear of
: losing control of mind and body,
: fear of losing the witness
: perspective, fear of other chakras
: opening without my wanting them to,
: etc, etc.
:
: The questions for you all: How do I
: slow this down? How do I feel the
: present fear that's been released
: (something I WANT to do) without
: more continueing to flood out before
: I've got some kind of balanced
: relationship with the initial surge?
: I need to develop a much stronger,
: more confident abilitiy to remain in
: the witness, but how do I develop
: that without simultaneously
: releasing more difficult feelings?
: And what are we supposed to do when
: the energy wants to release in the
: form of twitches and tremors (I
: couldn't find mention of such stuff
: in the book)? Also, other books
: (eg. Kornfield's A Path with Heart)
: mention perils of spiritual life
: such as temporary blindness, too
: quick release of kundalini energy,
: hallucinations, days of arm flapping
: and all these other forms of
: "madness" which, of
: course, are all adding tremendously
: to my fear of this experience(!);
: any comments regarding such things
: would be appreciated.
:
: A bit about my circumstances for
: anyone who might wish to respond to
: this: I live almost alone in the
: wilderness (I have wonderful
: neighbors) without easy access to
: phone or computer (which I love!)
: and I have very limited financial
: resources for a therapist. I would
: like to continue this process but in
: a more gentle fashion, if possible.
: And, no, I have no history of mental
: "illness", only the
: run-of-the-mill suppression style we
: all suffer.
:
: Thank you for your time!! Would
: love some feedback! And I wish you
: courageous beings well. Blessings
: to you!
:
: Abigail.
:
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