Posted by Lisa on 4/13/2008, 10:48 am, in reply to "Re: Emotional Numbness"
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George,
Thank you for your reply. I had felt so lonely for such a long time, thinking I was the only one going through this. You had said that "I knew my numbness is to
do with my inability to handle my marriage issue" What exactly do you mean? Are you having trouble with your marriage? I had a few years where my husband was very verbally and emotionally abusive to me. At the time, I just kind of suppressed my feelings, and tried not to make him mad. Of course, I was a lot younger then. I didn't have the wherewithall to deal with him. Anyway, for the last year or so, he's been wonderful. But, I'm still having trouble feeling love for him. I can't even feel love for my kids. I know I love them, I just can't feel it.
As far as not being able to cry, I do have some times, whereI feel like I want to cry, (This is a fairly new feeling for me), but, I can't). I can feel it around my eyes, and my temples. What is the (Johns's book
technique) that you're referring to? I'm aso seeing a pschologist, whom I'm hoping can help me. Lisa
--Previous Message--
: Dear Lisa,
: I have very similar situation like
: you, and that's why I wish to share
: with you. I knew my numbness is to
: do with my inability to handle my
: marriage issue, and I suppressed my
: true feeling and urge for true and
: deep love; at the last raise of
: breakup, I gave up my own inner
: voice and comply with the situation
: to make less people feel sad.
: However, doing so is doing no one
: good, and in the contrary, I denied
: my own voice & made my own
: feeling dumb, which is spotted and
: pointed out by my dear brother being
: numb, and "get a life"
: said by other unknown
: neighbourhood... even it made me a
: bit angry, I will look into the
: validity & truth in these words.
: Incidentally, I see my niece to the
: airport who visited and stay in the
: Orient for few days, by the time she
: think it's the spot to farewell, she
: jumped on me, cried and said missing
: "us" a lot... I was very
: touched by her true, strong and
: simple emotion, it's the moment my
: emotion was awakened; and I get to
: aware my numbness. After this
: incident, I started to be more true
: to my feeling, keep on the pursue to
: true & deep love (even it's a
: multi level topic), face the
: reality, make changes...together
: with mistake, but with courage and
: fire. THe second memorable thing is
: when I stop over chicago airport, at
: beach side, I spreaded my arms,
: breathing in (with JOhns's book
: technique) I start crying loudly...
: without judgement, but knowing that
: these are some of my suppressed
: feelings...very strong, and quite
: lonely.
: What I am saying is, may be some
: stimulation of strong pure love, or
: even the mother nature...will help.
: GOOD LUCK, AND YOU ARE DEFINITELY
: NOT ALONE, LISA! OK?
:
:
: --Previous Message--
: Hi,
:
: I have been suffering from
: "emotional numbness" for
: many years. Except for happiness, I
: don't feel sadness or grief, I
: haven't even really cried in over 19
: years! When somebody tells me
: something sad, Ifeelnothins!
: Nothing touches me. I can't even
: feel love. I've been on
: antidepressants for years, but, even
: before that, I was kind of like
: that. Do you think this book can
: help me? Does anybody else suffer
: from this? I Really feel alone!
:
: Lisa
:
:
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