Posted by george on 4/5/2008, 11:11 pm, in reply to "Emotional Numbness"
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Dear Lisa,
I have very similar situation like you, and that's why I wish to share with you. I knew my numbness is to do with my inability to handle my marriage issue, and I suppressed my true feeling and urge for true and deep love; at the last raise of breakup, I gave up my own inner voice and comply with the situation to make less people feel sad. However, doing so is doing no one good, and in the contrary, I denied my own voice & made my own feeling dumb, which is spotted and pointed out by my dear brother being numb, and "get a life" said by other unknown neighbourhood... even it made me a bit angry, I will look into the validity & truth in these words.
Incidentally, I see my niece to the airport who visited and stay in the Orient for few days, by the time she think it's the spot to farewell, she jumped on me, cried and said missing "us" a lot... I was very touched by her true, strong and simple emotion, it's the moment my emotion was awakened; and I get to aware my numbness. After this incident, I started to be more true to my feeling, keep on the pursue to true & deep love (even it's a multi level topic), face the reality, make changes...together with mistake, but with courage and fire. THe second memorable thing is when I stop over chicago airport, at beach side, I spreaded my arms, breathing in (with JOhns's book technique) I start crying loudly... without judgement, but knowing that these are some of my suppressed feelings...very strong, and quite lonely.
What I am saying is, may be some stimulation of strong pure love, or even the mother nature...will help. GOOD LUCK, AND YOU ARE DEFINITELY NOT ALONE, LISA! OK?
--Previous Message--
: Hi,
:
: I have been suffering from
: "emotional numbness" for
: many years. Except for happiness, I
: don't feel sadness or grief, I
: haven't even really cried in over 19
: years! When somebody tells me
: something sad, Ifeelnothins!
: Nothing touches me. I can't even
: feel love. I've been on
: antidepressants for years, but, even
: before that, I was kind of like
: that. Do you think this book can
: help me? Does anybody else suffer
: from this? I Really feel alone!
:
: Lisa
:
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