Posted by Thomas on 1/4/2008, 3:38 pm, in reply to "Asking for support"
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Kathy
I havent read the book yet but I understand what those feelings are as I also just recently broke things off with someone. What I can say is this be patient and loving to yourself during this process.
--Previous Message--
: First of all forgive me my English – I
: am from Poland and perhaps it is not
: as correct as it should be. John,
: thank you very much for your book it
: is my guide in life and I know it
: almost by heart. I have decided to
: share with somone what I am feeling
: because I need a support in my work.
: From some months I survive a real
: wave of feelings and emotions that
: invade my consciousness. The reason
: is very common and boring – a
: heartbreak. I am working with all my
: feelings, they are very intensive
: and sometimes I think I cannot go
: further. I think that I understood
: well all the rules of IC processing
: but I cannot see any progress in my
: work. It is even more strange to me
: because I have been involved in
: spiritual development for several
: years. I am practicing yoga for more
: than three years – I participate
: weekly in three or four one hour and
: a half sessions. I am also vipassana
: meditator, for two years I am
: practicing one hour meditation
: daily, sometimes twice a day. I also
: participate in group sittings once a
: week and in 10-days vipassana
: courses once or two times a year. I
: was always thinking that I am well
: prepared for emotional crisis. But I
: was not at all.
: I have several waves of very strong
: emotions a day. Sometimes they come
: into my consciousness very
: unexpectedly – during a business
: meeting or when I am in a company of
: other people. I cannot resist
: crying, but I have to suppress my
: pain because I cannot integrate it
: when I am with the others. These are
: the worst moments. During my
: meditation I feel a strong pressure
: in my heart and throat chacras.
: Should I breath to them? I am not
: sure because John told in his book
: that first we should open the lower
: chacras without “touching” the
: higher ones. My lower chacras are
: not integrated for sure that why I
: have some doubts.
: It seems to me that I am applying
: all rules of IC in my work. So, why
: I do not see any progress? Each day
: I feel more lonely and sad. I do not
: seek contact with the man who broke
: my heart and do not feel him guilty
: for my feelings, on the contrary I
: respect him and I am glad that I met
: him and i am able to experience all
: these feelings, no matter how
: painful they are. But sometimes the
: pain is insupportable and I cannot
: see the end of it. Nobody knows
: about my pain, I do not have a close
: friend to share with him/her my
: feelings. That is why I need someone
: to confirm that I am on a right
: path.
: Kathy
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